Letter 1

I miss you. I don't know what I can do without you. I woke up this morning singing "replay" (your song) in my head over and over again. Whatever I wanted to do to stop, I COULDN'T. I could NOT stop singing. I tried to think of something else, but I COULDN'T. I hate this. I woke up empty. Like nothing can fill in the spot you took away from me. There is a hole in my throat. I can't eat, everytime I do, I get sick to my stomach. But I am, I am eating just because it is for my well-being. Everything I do reminds me of you. How am I supposed to get over you when you have done nothing to hurt me? How am I supposed to get over you when I think about you nonstop. I woke up this morning thinking about how I won't be able to call you on the way to school. Tell you Good Morning and "I love you, have a wonderful day, text me when you wake up". I can't text you every freaking waking minute of the day. I am angry. I don't understand why this is happening.... I don't. Why would God hurt me SO badly? This feeling is the absolute worst feeling ever. Because of you, I am not going to trust another guy with my heart. My heart is in Kentucky. It is with you. You have stolen my heart. I want it back. I want all this pain to go away. If I get my heart back, I would be happy again. Well, partly. You made me believe in love at this age, I had fallen head over heels for you. I was SOO happy. Too happy. I knew it was too good to be true. I knew you were too amazing to be with me. But it is OVER now. DONE. We are no longer. I have never missed anyone as much as I do with you. Thanks.