Absence

His absence is killing me.
I am upset, abandoned, angry, and everything you can imagine.
This morning I woke up angry at everything, at time, him, myself, my parents. I don't know why. I was just mad at the world.
I have this depressing absence going through my mind that kills me... I hate it.
I don't understand why this could happen to me. Why can someone be taken away from me like this. He's miserable, I am miserable, my friends are miserable bc I am so angry and upset, and his friends hate him leaving, and supposedly my parents are hurting to see me hurt.
How could God hurt so many people at once? I love God to death, and I am not blaming him in any way, I just don't understand.
I have never been this angry at anything. I am not even quite sure what I am angry with. Today was an awful day. Only the start of an awful weekend...