On the verge...

All of the sudden, I feel empty again...
I don't like this..
I still miss you, wanna be with you, want you back here, love me, wish you'd talk to me...
But most of all, I wish you CARED.
Cared about me and about how we USED to be. :[
I miss you.
I love you...
This reminds me of you.
Everytime I think of you, I feel like I get a "jist" of what death feels like..


We pass in the hallway as if strangers to each other
your eyes are cold and your presence is dead.
Am i suppose to miss you?
Am i suppose to care?
The emotions i have once shared with you seemed like a fable from ancient times.

I feel nothing for you
Nothing at all.

Memories of you seem like a movie on a projector
The pictures seem life-less and the pain feels empty.
I can't remember your smell, i can't remember your voice.
Aren't i suppose to miss you?
Aren't i suppose to care?
You seem like a myth i made up for entertainment.

I feel nothing for you
Nothing at all.

My body heaves with empty tears. I want to hate you
I want need you. But the words are so lack less and the desire so easily ignored.
Why can't i miss you?
Why can't i care?
If only i can remember the sound of your heart the feeling of your skin. But i can't and i won't

Am i a fool to want to feel something? Am i a fool to be begging to feel something, anything! I want to be able to hurt when i see you, i want to be able to feel some kind of true connection to you. But I'm numb.

I feel nothing for you.
Nothing at all.